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Magician

I had the magician come up for me recently in a tarot reading. The reading was about my career and the path I am currently on, and I was seeking guidance on how to direct my energies moving forward. In the reading, I AM the magician. The tarot reader explained that, in this situation there is no difference between my will and divine will. Another powerful element of this reading, which was a celtic cross, were the first two cards: Ace of Cups and Ace of Pentacles. The true nature of success lies in following passion, intuition. Finding a way to live with my heart open is intertwined with earthly successes like money and career.

I am the magician. I have to take a deep breath to fully let that settle. What would the magician do? When given the set of choices I have in front of me.

When is the right time to seek security and predictability in life, and when is the right time to take risks. This is what I am struggling with. When does the magician go home, put their tools neatly in place and gather strength and when does she do the alchemical work, the journey work, the transformative work. Obviously, both can occur simultaneously. Another thing that occurs to me strongly, is the need to acknowledge the way I am already striking this balance in my own life and sit with what resonates about that balance currently. Does it feel right? What is working? What about my current situation needs to change to allow the magician to fully shine?

As we approach the (secular) new year, these are the questions I am reflecting upon. What do I bring with me, what is already working? What do I leave behind.

Luckily, the magician in this circumstance can make no mistakes — the journey and the destination are one!


Hail Fall!

Today I saw a play put on by my nephew’s Waldorf school about the coming of Fall. The teachers and students sang songs about harnessing your inner light to battle the darkness, both as a lesson for life and also as a way to welcome in the Fall.

I know it was written for children, but these themes made my very uncomfortable. What is the darkness these teachers speak of? Monsters under the bed? Scary strangers? Our inner “demons”?

Darkness and lightness dance together around the fire, don’t they? And, this season of the witches is one where the veil is thin. I know for myself, I find it easier to access those dark sides of myself. And for that, I am grateful. I do not battle them. I do not try to shine them out with my light. These parts of myself are juicy and complex and a part of me.

I think of the Flower prayer of Feri: Who is this flower above me? And what is the work of this god? I would know myself in all my parts.

All my parts. I embrace integration this season. I embrace the knowing, the witnessing, the power that comes with the work that happens this time of year. May learning happen. May all be nourished by seeing their true selves. May the cauldron boil over with earth medicine, nourishment and grounding for all so that we may be fully present when we step into our Selves this season, and always.