I took a big break in writing this blog, but Arita calls me back and so I must listen and follow.
Recently, I have been working with a group called the Temple of Shadows to facilitate and lead rituals that allow participants to explore all the parts of themselves in a kinky/BDSM and sex positive atmosphere. Doing this Work has allowed me to bridge two of my favorite communities and also constantly brings me back to the Flower Prayer of Feri.
The Flower Prayer
Who is the Flower above me
And what is the work of this God
I would know myself in all my parts.
Knowing ourselves in all of our parts. Quite a working all onto itself. I have spent years peering into that statement into my own life. It is radical and courageous and I still work on it every day. The Temple of Shadows has been one vehicle for me to explore on my own vulnerabilities, and that is stepping into leadership. I have found a lot of comfort in supporting from behind the scenes, but stepping into the center of a room always makes me nervous and shy. Nudge after nudge from all the supportive people in my life, and patient calls from by Patron Deities have me inching closer to the center and in the past 2 years, I have begun leading and co-creating rituals in both Reclaiming and Feri. Its a growing edge, and one that I dance around with spaciousness, self-compassion and playfulness.
In the next few weeks, I will be leading a ritual with an amazing group of people working with the Amethyst Pentacle. The Amethyst Pentacle was created by Storm Faerywolf and Chas Bogan as a working specifically for Queer Mens Mysteries. I am honored to bring this beautiful working to the BDSM community. This particular pentacle has a lot of personal significance for me. I was introduced to it a few years ago by a Feri Initiate who is pretty involved in the BDSM scene before I myself had found the inner power to step into that community, despite my great longing to do so. Through working the point of the Pentacle, I untangled a part of myself that craved deeper intimacy through BDSM, great relationship with myself, community and friendship. It was an energetic gateway. Working the Pentacle, I stepped through the gates into more honest and joyous relationship with my Self.
When Priestessing a Ritual, I always feel the intention and magic of the ritual begin to weave threads into my life weeks before the ritual happens. It can send ripples into my life for months after. With such a special place in my life as an initiatiory doorway into Kink I wonder what deepening the ritual will offer me, what new layer I will find in my Self as I spiral ever closer to simple authentic Me.